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contagious -- i will not catch it simply by hanging around, ALTHOUGH i may find the desire to something more. it is through close contact with my peers and witnessing their improvement that i may actually “catch” that desire. like many others, i want the results of living a program of recovery, without necessarily doing all the work. as nice as that idea may be, i have seen the results of “half-assing” a recovery program, bit in my life and the lives of others, so i say a huge NO THANK YOU, to that notion.
this morning as i sift through my last twenty-four hours, i am finally seeing that one of the men i sponsor is so stuck on what he believes to be real, that there is no way for me to open his mind. i always wondered what it would be like to live in a world if something was possible, than it is also probable, allowing others to think for me and pass down their predigested, half-baked theories of what is and what is not. i know very few things, but one of the things i do know is the scientific method is the ways and means human knowledge is advanced. yes, scientists can be and will be wrong in the theories they may present, BUT they continue to research and revise those theories until they approach a rational explanation. for me, it takes more than a talking head on You-Tube to even consider y0that maybe the current scientific thought is wrong. i could continue down this rabbit-hole, but to what ends, i am quite certain whether someone believes that the Earth is flat because they cannot detect the curvature with their own eyes, does not really affect me, as i am quite certain that they are mistaken, whether they can see past that notion or not. i can still recover, express myself in a rational manner and allow what i believe to be altered by new facts and figures, as i am no longer fearful of finding out that what i believe may actually be wrong and harmful to me.
as i prepare to step out of my comfortable abode and into the real world, i know that i have more than a few issues to deal with at work. this will be my last day of working on the project that has me stymied, as perhaps it is time for someone else to take a peek. life is good and i am prepared to admit that i will not be running the Bolder Boulder this year. i have a longer term goal in mind, hiking at least three fourteeners this summer, so walking that footrace is the best i can do with what i have going on today. it is a good day to remember that i am the only one who is responsible for my recovery and the consequences that arise out of not living up to my responsibility, just for today.

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