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posted: Friday the 19th of January, 2018 07:42:27 AM
looking at the rest of the reading,although i can also see myself moving into that spending sleepless nights in front of my computer calculating income and expenses and wondering where the fVck it all went to, the message that hit me the hardest was the one of not going out and stirring the pot, just to feel excited about my life today. that behavior is very familiar to me, and is driven by my need to feel powerful and in control. if i can wreak a tiny bit of chaos in the lives of others, than i am that much more superior and closer to being supreme. in the long run, however, it goes back to being a spendthrift. that is a symptom of my less than stellar self-esteem. the more things i can display, the more supreme i am, and the more supreme i am, well one knows where that story line goes.
right here and right now? well, it is time to wrap this up, get showered and shaved and head on down to the pl;ace that pays me well enough for me to dispaly the wealth i do not have, just for today.
∞ DT ∞
While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
Translated by James Legge
2) Shall we then dispense with correction? The (method of) correction
shall by a turn become distortion, and the good in it shall by a turn
become evil. The delusion of the people (on this point) has indeed
subsisted for a long time.