∞ feeling shitty? just hit the reset button ∞
Posted: Fri, Oct 28, 2005 05:42:44 AM
this morning i feel good, i have some stuff about forgiving and moving on to finish dealing with but all in all i am in a good space. the concept of starting my day over again after a ‘spot inventory’ is one i have enjoyed using since i first got clean.
the best part of this process (starting over) is that as i accumulate more tools, i have different, more powerful means to the end of living in today. it was true that in active addiction, i did not have a clue about how to live. when i was miserable, i made all those who happened to interact with me miserable too! in fact it was my goal to make them as miserable as i was, so i could feel better and believe that i had some power over other people‘s emotional state.
as i progress along the path of recovery, i have learned how to change my attitude without taking it out on others. this does not mean that i always avail myself to that process, but i have no excuse anymore, i know better!
can i change what is currently going on inside of me? not hardly, that is a process that must finish of its own accord. what i can do is to change my attitude about that process, i know that even though i may feel weird and confused, i do not have to make everyone else feel weird and confused. acceptance and tolerance of the feelings will allow me to live in the here and now, and let things happen as they will. after all who the hell do i think i am? just another recovering addict!
∞ DT ∞
the best part of this process (starting over) is that as i accumulate more tools, i have different, more powerful means to the end of living in today. it was true that in active addiction, i did not have a clue about how to live. when i was miserable, i made all those who happened to interact with me miserable too! in fact it was my goal to make them as miserable as i was, so i could feel better and believe that i had some power over other people‘s emotional state.
as i progress along the path of recovery, i have learned how to change my attitude without taking it out on others. this does not mean that i always avail myself to that process, but i have no excuse anymore, i know better!
can i change what is currently going on inside of me? not hardly, that is a process that must finish of its own accord. what i can do is to change my attitude about that process, i know that even though i may feel weird and confused, i do not have to make everyone else feel weird and confused. acceptance and tolerance of the feelings will allow me to live in the here and now, and let things happen as they will. after all who the hell do i think i am? just another recovering addict!
∞ DT ∞