attitude check
Posted: Thu, Oct 28, 2004 05:21:26 AM
this has always been one of the amazing parts of the program for me. when i first heard this, i wondered how it would ever be possible to change my attitude, i always believed that if i woke up in a crappy little mood i was doomed to be that way all day. the people i interacted with bore the brunt of my negativity and that was just the way it would be.
today i understand that bad attitudes are more like dirty diapers, i can sit and whine about them or i can change them. the idea of a spot inventory and starting my day over still fills me with awe and i often forget that i have these tools to "fix" my nasty self right now in this moment. what i generally find is that i am afraid of something and have decided that it not worth GOD's time to take care of. I even though i pay lip service to working steps 1, 2 and 3 on a daily basis the truth is that i rarely consciously work them and i have to be in a real spot to pull them out of the toolbox and use them.
today's reading was an excellent reminder that i am not doomed to be a nasty bastard all day, i can look at what is going on, admit my powerlessness and surrender my will and my life over to the care of GOD and move into better, more sane behavior.
-- DT --
today i understand that bad attitudes are more like dirty diapers, i can sit and whine about them or i can change them. the idea of a spot inventory and starting my day over still fills me with awe and i often forget that i have these tools to "fix" my nasty self right now in this moment. what i generally find is that i am afraid of something and have decided that it not worth GOD's time to take care of. I even though i pay lip service to working steps 1, 2 and 3 on a daily basis the truth is that i rarely consciously work them and i have to be in a real spot to pull them out of the toolbox and use them.
today's reading was an excellent reminder that i am not doomed to be a nasty bastard all day, i can look at what is going on, admit my powerlessness and surrender my will and my life over to the care of GOD and move into better, more sane behavior.
-- DT --