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i stopped talking long enough to learn to listen. wow, what a morning, short commute but a very, very busy start to my day. once upon a time, i thought about meeting attendance and was going to make that my topic, but time and events have moved something else to the top of the stack, listening!

Ryan B
2 years,bro!
way to go my friend.

Jayme S
17 years, of one day at a time.
Thank you for sticking around.

it is true, that i still go to three meetings a week, for lots of reasons, but mostly out of force of habit. there are times, when i do not hear anything, anyone has said or is sharing. sometimes it is because of a judgement i have thrown, that they have nothing to offer me. other times, it is because i am rehearsing my cross-talk. and others it is because i have stuff going on in my head about life outside the rooms. so what it comes down to, most of the time, is that for whatever reason, i think i am different and unique. and that seems to be the issue. when that story starts rolling in my head, the next part goes along the lines, well, maybe i can learn to use like a normal person, every now and again, and walk away. the odd and insane part of that, is that i am pretty sure the so-called normal people do not class their using as normal. they do it, it works for them, they have fun and they never think about it again, or at least it does not consume them, as it did me.
so what do i do? well i review my behaviors during my daily inventory, i make a conscious effort to be present and it seems in time, i start to listen again and see that i am not all that different after all.

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