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of love and joy that fills the meetings of the fellowship that has given me this life, keeps me clean another day. okay, a return to the beginning. i used this seed way back when i was getting started doing this exercise, close to the end of my first year of semi-publicly, sharing my thoughts, desires, angst and progress. i make it a point not to read those old posts, just because what was once “true” for me, is more than likely no longer part or parcel of who i am today. the irony here, is that in those days i was going to at least five meetings a week, when today, one and done seems to be my limit. it is, what it is and in my life, there are no excuses for not attending as many meetings as i once did.
in the past year, a whole lot has changed in my life and as i close out the chapter of my life where my parents once lived, there is a lightness to my being and a sense that no matter what, i will now have the time to relax and find my balance again. five more days and none of those days will require getting my niece out of the house she believes she was entitled to live in the rest of her life. for someone that was living as a guest in my Mom's home she sure had a lot of stuff, in fact she filled a U-HAUL box truck up, with all of her stuff. it makes me look around my home and once i am done with dealing with my parent's stuff, it will be time to deal with my own, bit by bit, piece by piece, and document by document. all of this is making me wonder if the time to move to another internist is at hand. as much as i like my doctor, i have a few concerns about her corporate overlords and their take on my health care options are driven by their religious beliefs and that they can sell my “anonymized” data to GOOGLE and who knows who else, because of a very tiny loophole in HIPAA. that decision is upon me and my research begins in earnest early next week, just for today, i will leave things as they are, revel in the bit of freedom i do have from the weight i have been carrying and celebrate that i actually made it sixty-seven times around the sun , as i move forward into my sixty-eighth. it is a great day to be clean and grateful for what i have.

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