โ i attend meetings for a variety of reasons, โ
Posted: Tue, Apr 17, 2007 07:46:18 AM
the atmosphere of love and joy that fills meetings has kept me clean another day. No matter how hectic my schedule, i make meeting attendance my priority.
looking over the entries across the span of time, i have come to realize that some of the stuff i write is a repetition of the same thing. there are two possible causes for this, the first being i am in the exact same spot every single time i read the reading, or what is more likely is that i totally agree or disagree with what the reading is saying and i write almost the exact same thing. i have a feeling that the reading today is one of those.
meeting makers make it! at least that was what i was told way back when i was struggling against the the so-called demons of my disease. one of the suggestions that i did follow was to make a commitment to ninety meetings in ninety days, and guess what, i stayed clean those ninety days and beyond. so of course, i understand that adapting my hectic schedule to my meeting schedule is something i NEED to do. even when i was going through my "I HATE ALL THESES STOOPID MEETINGS phase," i still went to at least two meetings a week, just because i have come to believe that meeting attendance is a part of my life of recovery that is essential. yes i could go on about the horror stories of those who i have seen stop coming to meetings, but i have said more than enough about that over the course of time. yes i could go on about my FEAR about what would happen if i choose to stop attending meetings, but that too has been a subject that i have spent many words on in the past. what i will say though, it was those boring, mundane meetings that kept me connected when the part of me i call my disease was working me over. i may not have heard a single word that was said, or if i did, i left the meeting in full of self-righteous indignation and vowed to stop that particularly futile exercise. i still gritted my teeth, pasted on a smile and went to yet another meeting all with the HOPE that this too shall pass, and it did. ninety meetings in ninety days, probably not a commitment i can make these days, BUT i will commit to continuing to attend at least three meetings a week regardless of what i have to do. and for today that is more than adequate in my not so humble opinion!
looking over the entries across the span of time, i have come to realize that some of the stuff i write is a repetition of the same thing. there are two possible causes for this, the first being i am in the exact same spot every single time i read the reading, or what is more likely is that i totally agree or disagree with what the reading is saying and i write almost the exact same thing. i have a feeling that the reading today is one of those.
meeting makers make it! at least that was what i was told way back when i was struggling against the the so-called demons of my disease. one of the suggestions that i did follow was to make a commitment to ninety meetings in ninety days, and guess what, i stayed clean those ninety days and beyond. so of course, i understand that adapting my hectic schedule to my meeting schedule is something i NEED to do. even when i was going through my "I HATE ALL THESES STOOPID MEETINGS phase," i still went to at least two meetings a week, just because i have come to believe that meeting attendance is a part of my life of recovery that is essential. yes i could go on about the horror stories of those who i have seen stop coming to meetings, but i have said more than enough about that over the course of time. yes i could go on about my FEAR about what would happen if i choose to stop attending meetings, but that too has been a subject that i have spent many words on in the past. what i will say though, it was those boring, mundane meetings that kept me connected when the part of me i call my disease was working me over. i may not have heard a single word that was said, or if i did, i left the meeting in full of self-righteous indignation and vowed to stop that particularly futile exercise. i still gritted my teeth, pasted on a smile and went to yet another meeting all with the HOPE that this too shall pass, and it did. ninety meetings in ninety days, probably not a commitment i can make these days, BUT i will commit to continuing to attend at least three meetings a week regardless of what i have to do. and for today that is more than adequate in my not so humble opinion!
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