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that my priorities are [180] degrees reversed and often at the very worst time.the reading is about meeting attendance, and while i can say that three a week seems to allow me to survive, and yes maybe thrive, there are weeks last last week where i went fiver days without a meeting. for me, making a regular number of meetings a week is important, BUT, i also have a minute clean, so if i do not go to a meeting for a week, i may not be on top of my spiritual game, but i am probably not going to be found in a gutter somewhere with a needle in my arm. that is just a fact of my life. more on that notion later, but first time for a shout-out to a couple of my peers, who are meeting makes as well.

Jayme S,
WOW, 20 years clean!
Amazing what happens when one keeps coming back.

Ryan B,
FIVE years clean!
Congrats, my friend.
I am glad you keep coming back!

one of the things i get out of meetings, is the opportunity to find that within myself that needs a bit of correction. i am almost always guilty of at least a judgement or three when my peers share their experience, strength and hope, but have come to a place where i can say, “i will think about that tomorrow, after all, tomorrow is another day.” one of the notions that came up for me last night was the fact that pushing people into nice neat categories by labeling what they are, based on my perception of their behaviors, is a task i am quite familiar with, in my life. when i call someone a “narcissist or sociopath,” i am squeezing them into a box, so i do not have to deal with the real issues. sure, i may have a real grievance against them, they may have actually harmed me, BUT when i start ascribing motives to their behavior i am either condemning them to the eternal damnation of my scorn, or minimizing the damage they wreaked upon my life. i amy be able to tell someone why the sky is blue or whyt i behvae the way i do (some of the time), but why someone does something, not so much. making excuses for others, because they artistic or suffer from any number of real or imagined mental conditions, does the same thing, in short i am saying they are not worthy of being forgiven or they lack the insight to see the harm they cause. learning to accept what others do, without trying to figure out their motivations or labeling them, is certainly an excellent task for today. i GET to be a bit better and a bit more spiritual and it is because i go to meetings that i get to use my peers, as mirrors for my own behaviors and learn to accept that they, too, are doing the best they can, with what they have.

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