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and balancing the various facets of my life is just one of those things that i have concerns about. i know what i need to do every day and that was true even when i was using. the difference between then and now, or at least the biggest difference, is that now i care when my life is off kilter. back then, i had the means to at least suppress the desire to do something different, and once i started using i really did not care if i ever accomplished all that i wanted to do in a particular day, or even ever. the only balance that was important to me was what i owed my dealers and how much more i could get on front.
removing the use of substances from my life, has not been some magic bullet that was the answer to my time-management quandaries, nor has i had some sort of mystic enlightenment as to perfectly balance all the areas of my life :((! what i have got is a blueprint for moving forward in my life and if i am open-minded and willing, i get to learn how to do this balance thingy, just a little better every day. yes, in early recovery and even up until not to long ago, i had way to much weight on my scale, and remembering this particular reading, i have been removing a few responsibilities and demands on my time a little bit at a time. and even though the scales have tipped more than once come precariously close to dumping everything, i am learning how to balance my life one day at a time. and for me, that is the heart of this reading -- being open-minded and willing to look at how to do things bit by bit, one day at a time.

∞ DT ∞