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... i feel a calm serenity. this peace is the beacon that provides clear direction when my mind is busy and confused. as i finished my seventh step last night, and as i embark on my eighth, i am struck with the certainty that somehow, the serenity that the reading is speaking about, is without a doubt an active force in my life. even as i write this, my mind is going off in lots of different directions, trying to get my errand list complete so that i can leave the house and move on.
take a breath…
close my eyes…
ah, much better, the task list will finish getting set, without me having to do it right now! so where was i? oh yeah, the serenity that i am feeling by opening my mind to the guidance of a FORCE external to me. i was going to comment on how ironic something is, but i decided to just accept that the serenity i feel, is a gift from moving on to the next step in this process, and that all i have to do is allow myself to experience this gift for a bit.
it amazes me, how simple this all can be. my natural tendency is to try and make it far more complicated than it is, i seem to like or rather desire to expand the details until i can see the complexity in any idea, then i can apply the brute force of my intelligence and reason upon it. i am finally coming to see, that in the spiritual life, that is not only a waste of time, but for this addict is actually counter-productive. so it goes, time to allow myself to simple be at peace, accomplish what needs to be accomplished and see where i can end-up when this day is done!
so it is off to the races!

∞ DT ∞