Blog entry for:

...for a time, to have some fun with my recovery. through humor, i can be temporarily relieved of my obsession with self. looking over the entries on this topic over the past few times i have written about, i realized that i am taking myself way too seriously, and have been for quite some time. so this entry demands that i lighten up OR ELSE! well not hardly that severe, but i can be quite stern with myself, and as a result, that sneaks out into all my affairs and i am taken as someone who is serious.
there was a time, in fact throughout most of my life, i was driven to be taken seriously. i studied, i remembered, i read and i acted "deep." as a result i appeared to be this deep and serious kind of guy, whose humor was rather dry and mostly cynical. and of course my humor was at the expense of anyone but me, it was meant to make them look less than, but that of course is a whole different topic and one that wanders off task. my task this morning is to see if i can be lighter in spirit and action than i am used to being. to see if i cam laugh at myself, and to just enjoy what the day brings. sitting here right now, nothing springs to my mind to write about, so i guess i will just sign-off with the thought that no matter how serious i may appear, the real me is still the mischievous, prankster that was buried by my years of using.
okay, back from the showers, still nothing funny, ironic or humorous about my current life situation pops into mind, so it is time after all to face the world and see what i can get done today.

∞ DT ∞