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...a search for the humor in the situation can put things in a brighter perspective. okay i am very annoyed, my amazing magnifying mind prevented me from sleeping past 4:45 AM this morning. after sitting down with my sponsor last night and discussing the ELEVENTH STEP, i decide to go with the flow and get up and start working, which i did. am i any less annoyed -- no way, but as i sit here and get an hour and a half ahead of what i NEED to do today, i am struck by the irony of it all. yes, i NEED sleep, yes i NEED money, BUT apparently i NEED money more than sleep, or the flow of the order this morning, just requires me to be up and about, for whatever reason. so out of acceptance comes a bit of relief from the annoyance i feel towards myself, and i am certain a jaunt around the local streets here will provide me the rest of what i need.
so back to the topic at hand, looking on the brighter side of life, with a bit of humor. so as i sit here this morning way too early getting ready to make the next move, i see how silly i am to be beating myself up and being annoyed at the fact i was ready to rise and shine. yes i can wail, and gnash my teeth but in the long or short run, what good does it do, except make me hoarse and make my dental health that much worse.
it is true, obviously so, at times that i take myself too seriously. it is also true, that at other times, i can see my foibles and make light of them. and incredible as it may seem, the time i see my little quirks and behaviors and the times times i see that getting frustrated and annoyed, for what they are -- part of being human, are the times i exercise a bit of humor in looking at life, my life specifically. it is wonderful when i can take all of that boil it down to its essence and walk through a situation giggling instead of grinding.
as i get to the end of my thoughts on this particular reading, i am still struck by something that occurred in my conversation with my sponsor last night. since we were discussing STEP 11, it follows that there was a bit of metaphysics in the conversation. his question, rhetorical as it was caught me a bit off guard and caused me to pause to think. i am still pondering the question which is -- if we were created perfect and that what we perceive as flawed is just the inability to see that, why do we have the need to foster change instead of seeking the ability to see ourselves as we truly are?
on that note, i will leave you to your other activities, and i am certain that thought will be resonating all day long, starting with my quick jaunt around the neighborhood.

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