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although i may not have been a willing participant in my original decision to seek recovery and meeting attendance was enforced for me, it was my decision to become a fully participating member of the fellowship that saved my life.
at first i could not understand what was being offered, nor could i understand how the members i met were so happy and peaceful without using. i was sure that i was at some kind of bizarro cult that would brainwash me, shave my head and set me up in the airport with a pink can collecting donations and passing out tracts.
i came to discover over the next few months that although an outside agency was forcing me to attend meetings the decision to join and participate was sole mine.
thinking back, the decision i made to become a member was one of the better ones of my entire life. what i found was a new way to handle those little speed bumps of life, become a more complete person and lose the desire to use. i am grateful that i had that moment of clarity and that i too can recover my life from the ravages of active addiction.
∞ DT ∞