Blog entry for:

of which i have had many lately, no not open minds, opportunities for growth!
well let me see: i got up early, left the house early to get my car to the shop, and THEN the bus was late and as a result caught by the ever unpredictable BNSF on Main ST at first ave. all my preparations to get where i was going in time for everything came to naught and as i sit here watching the train crawl across the rialroad crossing, i am wondering WTF. yesterday was a day when all my plans were spontaneously altered and yet i wrote my step, i got to a meeting to give my sponsee his chip, but had to leave before he got a chance to share. so should i even be making any plans at all??????
not quite the AFOGs (Another Fvcking Opportunity for Growth) that the reading was speaking about, but they are mine today and everyday it seems. i can live with them and the message i seem to be getting is to be open to the vagaries of life. be adaptable to the ever shifting currents and allow myself to be guided by the POWER that fuels my recovery, after all that POWER is what gave me the opportunity to be what i am today.
i guess, i need to check-in insted of whine. i am feeling concern for my friend down in Colorado Springs, the fire there is more than just inconvenient and i hope that if they are in the path, they get out, save what they can and have insurance.
step work? i wrote again last night, surprisingly it was nearly pain free, as i had already opened the door on my guilt and shame and let it out. so on to relationships, this will probably be more than a one night stand, i can live with that as well.
the men i sponsor? well they are what they are. i see one in great pain and i know the problem, but as i ahve continued to grow, i realize i just have to let him suffer, until he is redy to do the next right thing. one sponsee got the nudge, than due to those currents of life events, i had to book before we had a chance to go over his work.
work? well that is in a state of flux. opportunites for growth and decison-making abound and in the next 10 days i will see what i get offered and listen for the answer to what is the best direction for me to take.
personally? well as is evident i have more than enough stuff going on to be vigilant about and allow myself to grow. what it all seems to be boiling down to, is simply let go and allow the POWER that fuels my recovery to care for my will and my life, just for today. so time to read the news and relax as we wend our way down to Denver.

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