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has never been a term to describe my behaviors. **lazy** and **procrastinator** have always fit that bill much more readily. today, however i am not here to bury Caesar by a whole lot of self-deprecation. i have character defects, i accept that, HOWEVER i am not a defective character. i can say i have swung both ways on this topic, from being without character defects to nothing but a collection of character defects that ruin my life and the lives of those around me. learning that what i am is neither of those extremes has been a long and somewhat arduous process that is far from complete.
well i had this all ready to post before the game and i forgot to do my due diligence and back it up. the Broncos won, the sun came out and as soon as i get this entry done, i am going for a workout. which kind of brings me around to being lazy. for the love of money in my Health Savings Account, i started being good about doing lots and lots of steps. i could have quit each year after i got my dollars deposited but for many reasons i decided to make an avocation of getting and staying more fit. for nearly the past two years i have watched the inches and the pounds get shed. my body image is starting to match what i want it to match and i am wondering where to go to next. i certainly could stop for a bit of time and let winter and my desire for sweets and other carbs to take over. i could then whine about how powerless i am over that and believe that settling for a few extra pounds and letting my old jeans fit better, is not a bad direction to go, as i know all about being a victim to my lazy self. today, regardless of how exciting the afternoon games may be, i think i will change into some workout togs, put the dawg on the leash and sneak out for some miles of cardio.
what i need to be careful about is allowing an avocation to become obsessive, as that is part of my nature. it is a good day to be clean and a better one to allow myself to find a bit of balance between desire and need. i am thankful i have voices of sanity in my life to remind me that while i am far from perfect, i am certainly better than i was, just for today.

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