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discovering within myself is priceless. quite a statement from someone that got the worst job review in his life yesterday and happened to read just for two days from now, this morning. my takeaway from both of those is to nerd harder, be more attentive to detail and be more communicative at work, especially when i need help. i do have an ally there, my mentor, and i do have the resources to devote to practicing my craft, outside of the workplace. i may not have been able top sleep in, because once my mind got racing at four-thirty this morning, i could not shut it down. what i do feel, however, is not dread and fear, but determination and resolve to meet the expectation s that my workplace requires of me. someone gave me a chance to get the rust off, even though i felt that this job was beyond me, now it is time to make myself fit into the position.

Steven S.
Twelve (12) years clean.
Congrats my friend!

with all that is going on in my head, i am hoping that i can meet with my sponse on Wednesday as we planned, but in the meantime, between my practice sessions, i think i will pound out some step work. i may not have an assignment, but i can certainly do some writing nevertheless. i also need to take some time out to go up and see my Mom, as my sister is out of town. i also need to get some miles in, a meeting at my home group and maybe a nap, as well. i am not certain how much i will accomplish today, but at least right now, it does NOT suck to be me. so it is off to Boulder and into this day, with a little bit of hope and a whole lot of courage, that i can face what i need to, be who i am and let go of what is not the most pressing issues in my life, just for today.

∞ DT ∞