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in touch with myself, on a daily basis is one of the healthy habits i have adopted across the chain of JFTs, i have managed to construct. what came up during the other part of my daily routine this morning, was that perhaps the time had come to stop focusing on what was done top me, and how i reacted to that and take a peek at where i responded when i wanted to react. quite honestly i am tired of treading over the same ground, time and again., especially when i have decided to move along and let what is, simply be. i need not comment on a “chain of succession”, creating “safe spaces” in the fellowship or self-willed “elegant” solutions, any more. in fact for my own spiritual growth, it is better to drop all of that into the bit bucket and never look back.
as i sat this morning, what i finally “felt” was that i certainly do not give myself enough credit for the “good” i do. in fact, i play the false humility game with myself, minimizing the positive effects i have on the world around me. a fact of my life, is that really is very little i need to “amend” on a daily basis and most of the actions i take, actually diminish the strife and angst that fills the world around me. no i am, not some sort of super force for world peace and equity for all, but i am part of that effort.
what i find extremely uplifting, when i do take a look at how i lived my day, is that i do not have to rationalize or justify what i did, even if it was not quite up to the values i choose to live by. i can simply acknowledge that i did wrong and make a course correction. i do not need to wonder why it feels as if the world is against me or why my peers are being so mean to me, as it is as plain as the nose on my face, i was living in a bout of self-will. today, i will continue my progress towards being better at what i do, professionally, spiritually and physically. my hope is that when i sit down tonight to review my day, the balance of that inventory is weighed in favor of living my values, rather than having to own the wrongs i did. on that little slice of HOPE, i think i will suit up and hit the look streets for a bit of exercise before i chain myself to my computer for the rest of the day.

∞ DT ∞