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by living peaceably myself, i can affect positive change by doing my best to practice the principles of the program.
so what up this morning, kind of in an emotional limbo this morning, not quite sure how i am feeling, but not feeling anything dramatic one way or another. it is more than ironic that in active addiction this was the state i was trying to achieve on a constant basis, but when it happens in recovery it feels weird. oh well this too shall pass!
so the reading was about affecting the world through my attitudes and behaviors, you know doing my small part be living a program that leads to a less chaotic effect on the world around me. that reduction of chaos and violence leads to less chaos and violence in the world around me, which leads to less chaos in the world in general, bit by bit.
as i ponder the question of my generalized fears about the state of the world today and how to my dismay it does not seem to be getting any less chaotic and violent, i take great comfort in the fact that by living the program suggested by the fellowship that has provided me this new manner of living, i am not at the center of all that chaos for a change. not that i believe that the state of the world was greatly affected by my active addiction, i did create my own sort of chaos and that chaos did affect those who were in contact with me. so by reducing that chaos in my own little corner of thew world i guess i do make the world that much better. is there real issues facing the world today? of course there are, and i can respond by cowering in fear under my covers in bed, or i can walk through each moment with a bit of courage and accept that no matter how much violence and chaos is occurring on a daily basis at least i am doing what i can to eliminate that from my life by living the program of recovery. more than enough for today.

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