Blog entry for:

speaking, and acting peacefully in my own life. warning, Will Robinson, there may be more than a touch of cynicism ahead. yes, this is one of those readings that inspire me to defecate a rainbow or two and fart a dozen daisies. or go quite an opposite path and run down the contrarian road, that i am apt to do. so today, perhaps, i will strive to strike a bit of of balance between the saccharine sweet and the dank and gloomy pit of despair.
it seems to be quite an overstatement of the obvious, that IF i act in a peaceful manner the world will be more peaceful as a result, at least in some small measure. i certainly know that my local world, is a helluva lot less chaotic, than it was back in the day, but is that enough to alleviate my sensitivity to what is happening in the world, in general? is knowing that i am contributing to the other side of the equation, enough? is this even a topic, worth writing about? i mean seriously, this is not Oprah or Dr Phil, this is about my life and how i walk through the world, staying clean, and practicing the spiritual principles that i have been taught. there really is very little i can do, to stop the tundra from melting and releasing all that trapped methane gas, to help find Flight MA 370, or to end world hunger. on the grand scale of things, i am a very bit player and knowing that is not some sort of dig to my self-worth, it is just a realistic look at what i am. oh i can get all touchy and feely about this and talk about how my contribution to a better world, does add up, and that the more i do, locally and in my life to live better and yes more peacefully, the better off the world is. in the long run, because i am selfish and self-centered, i really do not care how much my living better, makes the world a better place to live. there are enough other people in this world who go off spouting that sort of clap-trap. what i get from living better, is a better life. i need not worry about getting whacked by some thug in a dark alley, because guess what, i do not frequent dark alleys any more. i need not worry about being ratted out to law enforcement, because i do not commit daily felonies anymore. i no longer need to, but often do, because i am still sick, worry about how i appear in the eyes of others, because as a result of doing my damnedest to live this program, i look better in my own eyes.
and the litany goes on. what i have been given as a result of living better is a life beyond my wildest dreams. i do not have to inflate my efforts into part of some grand plan, because i like the rewards of what i am getting in the here and now. id living in this manner, contributes to a better world in general, than great. if not, well that is too bad, as it certainly contributes to me having a much better life. it si a good day to be clean, because i like the outcome of what living clean brings me,a nd the rest? well that is not bad either, it is not the overarching concept by which i live today, it is merely a side-effect of me living a better life, and i like it that way.
anyhow, part of this new life, is showing up for work, which means it is past time fro me to be moving in that direction, that too, has selfish and self-centered motives attached to it. work means the resources to live the lifestyle i have come to enjoy and to which i am entitled to earn, just for to today.

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