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exerting my own power first, IF i want to continue my recovery journey. life under the power of my self-will has never really worked out for me, even when i thought it just might be. time and again, i have ventured out on that path and each and every time it has had unacceptable consequences for me. one might think that i would learn. alas, it is not always the case. the good news is, that i make that choice less often these days. certainly a symptom of my on-going recovery process.
today, as i sat, i really did not want to “sit.” i wanted to get rolling down the road for my bi-weekly commute and finish the project that has had me stymied for weeks on end. i “forced” myself to follow my routine and sitting here in the office, i am glad i did. the drive was challenging and slower than usual and yet my serenity level was not affected by those who were sharing the road with me. even though there was yet another frustration when i arrived at work and i may be sitting in a very temporary location, i am okay with the fact that i may need to move in a few minutes, when i can get to the tool that allows me to find an open desk. it really is not a desk i would like to sit at anyhow. be that as it may, i need to get on with my work day and see if i can push my project forward. it si a good day to admit where my power comes from and defer to the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery.

∞ DT ∞