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Wed, Feb 13, 2008 01:03:50 PM
↔ i feel that without the fellowship i would surely have died from my disease. ↔
posted: Wed, Feb 13, 2008 01:03:50 PM
hence, its existence is my lifeline. however, disunity is an occasional fact of life in this fellowship; if i decide to be part of the solution instead of the problem, i am headed in the right direction. the trouble i have is sorting out the difference between disunity and differing opinions. i, like many of the members i serve with, have a tendency to express my opinion loudly, the louder the better as it increase the chance of me winning the battle. and after all it is all about wi8nning a battle one day at a time!
well not really, that is the defective character within me being expressed, i like everyone else, am entitles to my opinion, and although we are looking at the same goal, what we see is a different path to get there. i can only be part of the solution if i allow myself to express my opinion, listen to what others see as the path and allow the group to form in conscience accordingly. any other actions on my part make me part of the problem. it is ironic that this is the reading today, as i am working with members that i lovingly call dinosaurs. their attitudes and ideas about how to get things done are not quite aligned with mine, and were formed long before i ever thought about getting clean. my problem, is that although i respect their clean time and recovery sometimes i have trouble accepting their service experience as valid for the way the world is today. and that once again makes me part of the problem instead of the solution. so today, i am content with just sitting still, seeing what happens and allowing others to tell me their path to our common vision. i am also quite to content to remember as that as pup, i need to respect those who have been doing service, and who had the fellowship set-up so well that i could recover. life for this addict anyways is better when i do so, after all i hardly have all the answers and it is better for me to remember that and allow all members the chance to participate in the charting of the path to our common goals. it ois after all a good day to recover.
well not really, that is the defective character within me being expressed, i like everyone else, am entitles to my opinion, and although we are looking at the same goal, what we see is a different path to get there. i can only be part of the solution if i allow myself to express my opinion, listen to what others see as the path and allow the group to form in conscience accordingly. any other actions on my part make me part of the problem. it is ironic that this is the reading today, as i am working with members that i lovingly call dinosaurs. their attitudes and ideas about how to get things done are not quite aligned with mine, and were formed long before i ever thought about getting clean. my problem, is that although i respect their clean time and recovery sometimes i have trouble accepting their service experience as valid for the way the world is today. and that once again makes me part of the problem instead of the solution. so today, i am content with just sitting still, seeing what happens and allowing others to tell me their path to our common vision. i am also quite to content to remember as that as pup, i need to respect those who have been doing service, and who had the fellowship set-up so well that i could recover. life for this addict anyways is better when i do so, after all i hardly have all the answers and it is better for me to remember that and allow all members the chance to participate in the charting of the path to our common goals. it ois after all a good day to recover.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
5) There should be a neighbouring state within sight, and the voices
of the fowls and dogs should be heard all the way from it to us, but
I would make the people to old age, even to death, not have any intercourse
with it.