โก as long as the ties that bind this fellowship together are โก
Posted: Sun, Feb 13, 2011 09:11:48 AM
stronger than those that would tear it apart, all will be well. the question is am i part of the solution the so-called ties that bind or part of the problem, those that would tear it apart. i am certain, based on who you asked, you would get varying responses to that question, for me, it is part of my daily inventory and one where over the days clean, i have started to become acutely aware of more and more in the here and now.
this could certainly be a jumping off point to attack those i feel do not even come close to living up to being part of the solution, or even more salacious, with my confession of sins against the fellowship followed my my penitent public self-flagellation. i am more than certain in days past i have exercised both of those options, so this morning i choose to move in a different direction by redefining the terms.
although the reading mentioned specifically dealing with conflict in service bodies and how i deal with my service in that respect being a window into my spiritual state, what i heard this morning, when i actually took the time to listen, was “HOW CAN I BE A TIE THAT BINDS?”
no if, no why but how! when i get such an inspiration it moves me to action. tearing down or casting motives on the service efforts of others is not being part of the solution. recounting my own transgressions and beating myself up with that list, is also not part of the solution. looking for the opportunity to build and listening for a moment to serve is part of the solution. right now, i am quite content not being a part of any service committee. right now, i am committed to a more personal manner of carrying the message. looking for the opportunity to serve in this manner is what has been put on my heart to paraphrase one of my friends in recovery. such service is not as visible as my efforts in the past, but i know it is just as effective. yes it is true that i used some of the skills i learned in committee service to help out with a service event yesterday. i was a part of that effort not the driving force and i am more than grateful i was allowed to help. and yes, to be truthful, there is some pride in the fact that it came off so well. could it have been better? only if more members had shown up, but for our first time out we got the result we desired at least one more member willing to carry our message into the local jail. who knows, now that we know how to do it, perhaps we will get a better response from the membership at large the next time we do it. i GOT TO BE A PART OF THAT EFFORT and today i get to decide where my recovery is going as a result. my program cannot rest of the laurels of yesterday's actions but it it certainly stronger when i have been i active recovery in the past 24.
solution or problem, that choice is mine and mine alone. right here and right now i choose the former, as i start to prepare to step out into the real world and see what i can get done today.
this could certainly be a jumping off point to attack those i feel do not even come close to living up to being part of the solution, or even more salacious, with my confession of sins against the fellowship followed my my penitent public self-flagellation. i am more than certain in days past i have exercised both of those options, so this morning i choose to move in a different direction by redefining the terms.
although the reading mentioned specifically dealing with conflict in service bodies and how i deal with my service in that respect being a window into my spiritual state, what i heard this morning, when i actually took the time to listen, was “HOW CAN I BE A TIE THAT BINDS?”
no if, no why but how! when i get such an inspiration it moves me to action. tearing down or casting motives on the service efforts of others is not being part of the solution. recounting my own transgressions and beating myself up with that list, is also not part of the solution. looking for the opportunity to build and listening for a moment to serve is part of the solution. right now, i am quite content not being a part of any service committee. right now, i am committed to a more personal manner of carrying the message. looking for the opportunity to serve in this manner is what has been put on my heart to paraphrase one of my friends in recovery. such service is not as visible as my efforts in the past, but i know it is just as effective. yes it is true that i used some of the skills i learned in committee service to help out with a service event yesterday. i was a part of that effort not the driving force and i am more than grateful i was allowed to help. and yes, to be truthful, there is some pride in the fact that it came off so well. could it have been better? only if more members had shown up, but for our first time out we got the result we desired at least one more member willing to carry our message into the local jail. who knows, now that we know how to do it, perhaps we will get a better response from the membership at large the next time we do it. i GOT TO BE A PART OF THAT EFFORT and today i get to decide where my recovery is going as a result. my program cannot rest of the laurels of yesterday's actions but it it certainly stronger when i have been i active recovery in the past 24.
solution or problem, that choice is mine and mine alone. right here and right now i choose the former, as i start to prepare to step out into the real world and see what i can get done today.
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