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but when i work the Twelve Steps to the best of my ability, i find that i can become the type of person who is capable of ...
living a life based on my internal values, and the spiritual principles embodied in the 12 Steps. that does not mean that i will not get sick, mentally emotionally or spiritually, and today i am in the middle so a small little nasty bug. i physically feel like crap, and yet i am moving forward into what i need to do this morning, part of that is to get a bunch of projects done before i fly off to Woodland Hills, tomorrow evening. part of that is to get to a place today where i can be present for a celebration with my sponsor and some of my grand sponsees. and part of that is to to my best to take care of myself, so i can get over this virus, germ or whatever.
with that thought, i guess i have the metaphor for what i am thinking about today. and what pray tell is that -- well my path to emotional and spiritual health. what is that path? well it is the journey through the twelve steps. like drinking plenty of water, getting plenty of sleep, and taking some ibuprofen to take care of my physical self. the result of following suggestions and working steps is a social health that allows me to be a self-supporting, responsible member of society. i get to have a job, a place to live, a car to drive, a loving relationship, and friends who actually care about me and want to spend time with me. this sort of person was what i always desired way back when i was in active addiction, and in early recovery i still lacked any FAITH or HOPE that particular transformation would occur. now the chain of evidence is so strong that i am surprised i ever doubted what i could become.
so i need to shower and go attend to one of my plans, to see what is up for today, i may feel like crap, but spiritually i know that this too shall pass!

∞ DT ∞