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asking for the help of a HIGHER POWER is a way of renewing that act of FAITH, i can tap into that FAITH and trust just by asking. the third step and FAITH, is always an interesting bit of wisdom for me to contemplate. i am not one of those who readily accepts concepts of the divine that are presented to me as THE solution. i wish i was, as it would greatly simplify my journey. no this whole mysticism gig and how it relates to the path of recovery i am walking upon, is one of the issues i constantly find myself up against. i am grateful for the creative freedom that the program offers me, to seek, and discover what my connection to the divine looks like and how i interact with the POWER that provides for all my needs. so this whole believing without evidence trip, is one that often eludes me. for me, FAITH is built on evidence of things that i cannot explain away, and have the appearance of moire than a chain of coincidences. after all, it has been quite the long chain of coincidences from the BIG BANG to this very moment that has created who and what i am. i understand that i am a child of the stars, and a real comforting notion to me, is that this system, while it may not have been specifically aiming to create me, has nevertheless created me and given what appears to be the ability to question and decide for myself what is real, what is mundane, and what is more than mundane -- divine if you will. so for me, any act of any sort of FAITH, is quite a leap, and only comes after i have eliminated the most unlikely of explanations for the events that i see around me and that i am present to participate in.
you may have noticed, that the word GOD has left my vocabulary, and that is quite true. where once that word was an anathema to me, now it is wholly inadequate to even began to explain what i feel. my FAITH has become deeper, my quest has wound down for now, and i am finally once again becoming comfortable with how i see my place in this world between the profane and the divine. never before, have i been able to move with such assurance that i can see where i am going today and if i stay awake will be able to see where i may be going tomorrow. i walk in the FAITH, that a HIGHER POWER will provide me not only the knowledge but also the tools and resources i need to walk the path i NEED to walk today.
on that note, it is the day after a 10K, as well as a the day after a day of feasting, so it is time to take Odin out for a long and stimulating walk, and as a result i get the benefit of working off those wonderful tasty calories that i quite freely consumed yesterday. i am among other things, a creature that changes the matter into energy, and that energy i do not use gets stored in an unsightly manner until it is needed. so i will go need some of that stored energy before facing the real world.

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