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WHAT?? i do not have all the answers? i have not accumulated all the knowledge of the ages and as a result know why this works? a unqualified NO to both of these questions. that is not to say that i do know a thing or two, but ALL of the answers still elude me.
there have been many times in my life when i believed i had all the answers and was more than willing to loudly and arrogantly impart my so-called knowledge to anyone within earshot, whether they wanted to hear or not! i would love to say that those instances ended when i started recovery, but i am only a flawed human and this behavior has been carried into recovery.
today, i am satisfied with asking the question of HOW DO I APPLY THIS TO MY LIFE? i also have learned that i can ask WHY if i really need to, but i better be prepared for the awful response: BECAUSE IT HAS FOR MILLIONS OF ADDICTS FROM AROUND THE WORLD FOR OVER FIFTY YEARS!
i am less concerned today about what goes on behind the scenes in the recovery process than i am about seeing the results. and believe me, the results have been FAR beyond my wildest imaginings! the truth is i am clean today, living a life that was just beyond my grasp for all those years, and WHY i have to follow a suggestion or two in my daily life is actually totally irrelevant.
LIVING THE PROGRAM provides all the answers i need right now!
∞ DT ∞