โ the value of endless speculation pales in comparison to... โ
Posted: Sat, Jan 6, 2007 08:52:18 AM
...the experience of addicts who have found a way to stay clean and live clean.
boy has it been hard to knuckle down and write this today. i have started this process at least two or three times and have found something else to distract me. i guess i really do not want to admit that i do not know everything i NEED to know about how to recover and how this whole recovery gig works! so it goes, the honest truth is that the longer i stay clean the more amazed i become that this recovery stuff works for me at all. what i wanted when i got here and what i am getting today are so diametrically opposed that all i can say is that it is a good thing that i have yet to learn everything about life, the universe, everything and most importantly me and my recovery.
so with that thought i think i will move on with my day and if something else occurs to me as i proceed through my daily travails, i will jot it down and post an update later.
boy has it been hard to knuckle down and write this today. i have started this process at least two or three times and have found something else to distract me. i guess i really do not want to admit that i do not know everything i NEED to know about how to recover and how this whole recovery gig works! so it goes, the honest truth is that the longer i stay clean the more amazed i become that this recovery stuff works for me at all. what i wanted when i got here and what i am getting today are so diametrically opposed that all i can say is that it is a good thing that i have yet to learn everything about life, the universe, everything and most importantly me and my recovery.
so with that thought i think i will move on with my day and if something else occurs to me as i proceed through my daily travails, i will jot it down and post an update later.
∞ DT ∞