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to remove my shortcomings, and over the course of time, they are being removed! yes, i had to make a major alteration to my little seed. i can say when i am in the rooms, i read what is written, exactly how it is written, deferring to the wisdom of those who have gone before me. in my own space? well that is a different matter and i alter what i want to, so i can fit it into whatever paradigm i happen to be in today. this morning i heard a few things, one that took me back to a year ago, when i left a service body in a fit of pique, even though no one else knew i was ticked off. looking over my entry a year ago, i can sense the anger and frustration i felt all over again. i can see by what occurred this year, that i was not that far off the mark, and it is a good thing, that i am still happy being on hiatus from that level of service, right here and right now, all i want to do is to carry the message.
the second tangent i went down this morning is remembering what the psychobabble addict said the other night about shaping their behavior. here is the counterargument to all that they believe, and it is not the first time that they have run up against the steps and got smacked down. as their sponsor has yet to even contemplate a seventh step, they are clueless as to what really lies ahead and will continue to reconcile what the professionals and group therapy tells them is the truth, with what they may discover in actually living the steps.
where does this bring me? well, right here silly! i GET that all of the shortcomings i so dislike in myself have yet to be removed, but as i grow, as i work a program of active recovery and as i become the person i always wanted to be, i GET to choose how i react to people, places and situations. the SEVENTH STEP gives me a freedom of choice beyond my wildest dreams, not the least of which is to STOP judging the motives of others, after observing their behavior. the other freedom that springs to mind, is attaching the vilest of motives for my own behavior. between the two of those shortcomings, i certainly have a great deal of latitude of action, when i am released from their thrall.
anyhow, i have miles and miles of errands to run as well as miles of pavement to pound this morning, so moving on, i am grateful for the safety valve of the SEVENTH STEP, it is not my responsibility to ‘shape’ my behavior, it is my responsibility to allow my behavior to be shaped according to the spiritual principles of the program i ascribe to and the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery. i can and will live with that today!

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