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the next two days i get a break from the bus, due to places i WANT to be after work. yes, i hate driving in traffic, but sometimes it is worth a little frustration to have just a little bit more control. the reading this morning took me back to a conversation i had last night. rather a listening to another addict rant and rave about how unfair life is, and about how they did not believe that the consequences they are suffering were appropriate for “just a few uses.”
reality check? that is ALWAYS the consequence for that addict, until they realize that they cannot use without once more going where they do not want to go, they will be trapped in the cycle of recovery -> abstinence -> use -> consequence -> recovery. to listen to them go on and on about how they were entitled to this and that, made me wonder when they were going to grow up. which brings me to the point i heard this morning. namely that my reward for living life on its own terms is a growing FAITH which gives me the ability to better live life on its own terms. yes there are aspects of my life that truly suck today. there are also aspects that are great beyond my wildest expectation. mostly, though life is just life, neither sucky not great and i am okay with that today. so although i would love to go on and on, i am out of time this morning and if i want to reduce my frustration level, i NEED to get moving down towards Denver. perhaps a lunchtime update may be in the cards today. who knows, all i know that if i keep doing what i am doing i will keep getting what i have been getting. amnd i like what i have been getting!

∞ DT ∞