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of trouble, i have the FAITH to walk forward, thanks to the program of recovery that has brought me this far. yesterday, after my phone blowing up at 8 AM, i decide it was time to put some boundaries on my job search and when the swarm of recruiters can call me and when i am going to have some time for myself. it seems that now that i am unemployed, others have “better” ideas about how i should spend my day and have “favors” for me to do, even though they are physically capable of doing it for themselves. do i sound a bit bitter? it just happens that i am. when someone can take themselves out to do what they “want” to do, but tell me they incapable of taking themselves out to do what they “need” to do, i get a bit put off and angry. i know that venting about this, will only help me dump my feelings, as they will never get it, as i was told this morning from a very trusted source, the source of my ire, will never change, no matter how hard i push them to step up and be responsible for themselves. be that as it may, time to move along:

Margaret C
Congrats on Twenty-Eight (28) years clean.

one benefit of being unemployed, is that i no longer have to run at dawn's early light. it still may be cold out there, but at least it is not dark. i have been doing this fitness gig for a few years now, and one might say i am a bit obsessed. i started doing it for the money my previous company would give me, and i continue doing it, because i have FAITH that by doing so, i may actually remain healthy and active for years to come. my notion is that because i choose to take care of my physical health with exercise and my spiritual health, by living a program of recovery, just for today, i may actually age “well.” i know that is also a leap of FAITH as i cannot stave off getting older, if i choose to stay on this side of the turf. what i get is today and today, i do believe i will post this little tidbit of my feelings on the internet and dress warmly enough to enjoy my workout of this winter's day. it is after all a good day to be clean.

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