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Thu, Sep 10, 2015 07:43:58 AM
♦ more powerful ♦
posted: Thu, Sep 10, 2015 07:43:58 AM
than words. yes i get it, the human touch is far more healing than the human voice, and at six thousand five hundred and seventy four days
6574 days (18 years today) since the last day i used, it is finally becoming clear to me, that i heal more when i am given a hug, than when i am given a kind word. speaking of kind words. i GET to share my clean date anniversary with two men of my local fellowship, more on that later, for now:
once upon a time, and not that long ago, i was pissed off at having to share the spotlight with not just one, but two other members of my local fellowship. i once again noodled around to changing my annual celebration from the last day i used, to my first full day clean. for all of the wrong reasons. across the course of days, i have learned to tolerate, accept and finally into a place where i gratefully share my day with two of the men who are in my sponsorship family. today, i have finally made a decision that my clean date will remain where it is, at least for as long as i am a member of the “No Matter What” club.
moving along, the reading, this two has often been a disappointment to me, across the course of my recovery., i mean seriously why could i not have REBELLION or FEET of CLAY, as they seemed to be more powerful topics than HEALING TOUCH. since i set my clean date anniversary through a loophole offered way back when, i could easily shift it one or two days in either direction to find the reading that i felt suited me better. after all, being cool and having a cool reading on my clean date was something i thought i might need to do. well here it is September 10th, once again, and as one can plainly see, today is my clean date celebration, and the topic is not anything other than what it has always been.
right here and right now, i am grateful for the gift of pause and wait, because today i can celebrate based on a decision made out of looking better than i was feeling almost 18 years ago, because i did not reset my clean date until i got busted using. just goes to show one, that some things, even character defects take time to be removed.
i do need to head on south and get to work. it is a great day to be clean and to be celebrating 18 years of being a member of the club.
6574 days (18 years today) since the last day i used, it is finally becoming clear to me, that i heal more when i am given a hug, than when i am given a kind word. speaking of kind words. i GET to share my clean date anniversary with two men of my local fellowship, more on that later, for now:
Chris M
6 years, WOW
Thank you for the reach out last night.
Keep Comin' back.
Leonard H
9 years clean today
Way to go my friend!
once upon a time, and not that long ago, i was pissed off at having to share the spotlight with not just one, but two other members of my local fellowship. i once again noodled around to changing my annual celebration from the last day i used, to my first full day clean. for all of the wrong reasons. across the course of days, i have learned to tolerate, accept and finally into a place where i gratefully share my day with two of the men who are in my sponsorship family. today, i have finally made a decision that my clean date will remain where it is, at least for as long as i am a member of the “No Matter What” club.
moving along, the reading, this two has often been a disappointment to me, across the course of my recovery., i mean seriously why could i not have REBELLION or FEET of CLAY, as they seemed to be more powerful topics than HEALING TOUCH. since i set my clean date anniversary through a loophole offered way back when, i could easily shift it one or two days in either direction to find the reading that i felt suited me better. after all, being cool and having a cool reading on my clean date was something i thought i might need to do. well here it is September 10th, once again, and as one can plainly see, today is my clean date celebration, and the topic is not anything other than what it has always been.
right here and right now, i am grateful for the gift of pause and wait, because today i can celebrate based on a decision made out of looking better than i was feeling almost 18 years ago, because i did not reset my clean date until i got busted using. just goes to show one, that some things, even character defects take time to be removed.
i do need to head on south and get to work. it is a great day to be clean and to be celebrating 18 years of being a member of the club.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
3) He who lightly promises is sure to keep but little faith; he who
is continually thinking things easy is sure to find them difficult.
Therefore the sage sees difficulty even in what seems easy, and so
never has any difficulties.