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working on personal responsibility? i would have to give that question a qualified maybe! i found out at work this morning that i need to pursue my job search with a new vigor. the reduction of ten percent of my salary is not to painful today as i have a couple of irons in the fire, however after the next thirty days it looks a bit grim, so my responsibility is to give myself and my new life a chance to grow by actually doing the footwork to move ahead with my career. i love my job and actually enjoy some of the benefits that working here provides but the time has come to move forward in all aspects of my life. i am amazed that i am not angry at the decision of the company to cut pay, in fact it is for me the impetus to actually take care of my needs and do what i need to. the fact that i am nether worried nor angry about the current situation implies one of two things; either i am to numb from all the changes that have occurred over the past month to actually realize what is going on or that i have learned a thing or two about myself and can accept a thing or two with a bit of grace, using the tools of recovery.
either way, my life is good this morning and i truly want to recover. at this point in my life that means accepting personal responsibility for my feelings, actions, behaviors and choices. because i desire the freedom to change and become more that i have ever been. life is full of twists and turns, but i do not need to twist about those things over which i have no power, i can let go and accept what comes, or i can let go and work on making the changes that are needed in my life and in the lives of those who love and care for me.

∞ DT ∞