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out with FEAR. hmm, i may have to think about that one for a very short minute. i never considered that being generous would be a replacement for fear, BUT when i consider that when i practice generosity, i am practicing selflessness and when i give of myself, my FEAR does dissipate. i have been in a weird sort of state of mind for the past few days, as i work my way through the tasks i need to accomplish for my Mom's estate. i am working on being fair, getting her recurring bills shut off and moving things towards their future state. the problem is, i have yet to truly give in to my emotions and grieve my Mom. there is still a bit of lingering resentment in my heart and as i clean up the messes she left behind, i have “cause” to build a whole new resentment and when anger fills my heart, i ask myself is it really worth the emotional strain to be angry at someone who is dead? does this provide me with any benefit or is it just the ways and means to have a full-fledged pity party? that always flips the switch because i am worth more than renting space in my head to anyone, alive or dead.
moving into the here and now, i need to get rolling on out to the cigar store before my morning meeting commences. i really do not have a whole lot to add, but it appears that i made the correct choice for realtors as the house is being shown multiple times this week, with an open house on Friday and Saturday. i wanted aggressive, but i did not realize how aggressive this sales team was going to be. the outcome has yet to be determined, but things may be looking up. it is a good day to figure out when and where i can be generous and allow myself the space to let go of what is not.

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