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ups and downs that life presents me, can be tolerated and accepted if i choose to let go and seek the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery. this morning i am feeling not as hopeful as i did yesterday, as i was less than stellar in the application of my skill set. over the next six days, i will be pushing forward with training, coding and basically getting my professional act together. it will mean being tied to the computer practicing my craft until it once again comes back to me.
as i sat this morning, i wondered if landing this job was truly the will of my HIGHER POWER. what bubbled up from the depth was that i did not lie or misrepresent myself in any manner and if i am true to my beliefs, than it is up to me, to make the most of this opportunity and win back the confidence of those who chose to give me this chance. emotionally and spiritually, i do not have my “panties in a bun,” but i do have a concern or three. the biggest one being that i am not up to the task in front of me. what kept coming up in response was to give it my best effort, trust in the process and have a bit of FAITH that i was not given this opportunity as a cruel cosmic prank.
moving into the here and now, i know this week is a lost cause, as i will not get my work to the finish line, there are others that i need to have look at it, and they are already out on holiday break. what i can do, however, is get a few things rolling for next week and do some training, instead of doom-scrolling on Twitter and FaceBook. i also am getting this wrapped up early enough so i can get a long workout under my belt. letting go of what may come and taking care of the what is present today, is my “mantra” for this morning. with that in mind, it i time to step out into this chilly November morning.

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