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Posted: Wed, Dec 25, 2024 12:20:46 PM
above the differences i start to understand who i am, how i fit, and how much i have to offer the world.
before i start down that path, i want to wish all my readers a happy holiday season, regardless of what spiritual path you do or do not follow. all in all, this is a much quieter Christmas than in years past. with the passing of my Mom, last January and the fact we are headed to the tropics tomorrow, i get to do a whole lot of nothing but football, packing for my trip, doing a little bit laundry and maybe, just maybe a trip to the store to see if they have a Kindle cover.
learning to see the similarities, rather than the differences, i start to figure some stuff out. the problem i have been having is the FEAR i feel about being myself. that FEAR, which has always been present in my life, has been quiescent until i started to stir things up with step work. i know that the FEAR is a reaction to a set of buttons that installed decades ago and when activated, activate my desire to run and hide, in the comfort of one of my many personas. as i have been told, taught and experienced, i know to defeat FEAR, i need to own it and walk through it, which is where i am at today. i know that i am just another garden variety addict in recovery, despite all the ways i am unique. i have a program, i have feelings and most importantly i have the desire to be clean today and live a program of active recovery.
before i start down that path, i want to wish all my readers a happy holiday season, regardless of what spiritual path you do or do not follow. all in all, this is a much quieter Christmas than in years past. with the passing of my Mom, last January and the fact we are headed to the tropics tomorrow, i get to do a whole lot of nothing but football, packing for my trip, doing a little bit laundry and maybe, just maybe a trip to the store to see if they have a Kindle cover.
learning to see the similarities, rather than the differences, i start to figure some stuff out. the problem i have been having is the FEAR i feel about being myself. that FEAR, which has always been present in my life, has been quiescent until i started to stir things up with step work. i know that the FEAR is a reaction to a set of buttons that installed decades ago and when activated, activate my desire to run and hide, in the comfort of one of my many personas. as i have been told, taught and experienced, i know to defeat FEAR, i need to own it and walk through it, which is where i am at today. i know that i am just another garden variety addict in recovery, despite all the ways i am unique. i have a program, i have feelings and most importantly i have the desire to be clean today and live a program of active recovery.
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