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Wed, Dec 25, 2024 12:20:46 PM
🕴 when i rise 🕴
posted: Wed, Dec 25, 2024 12:20:46 PM
above the differences i start to understand who i am, how i fit, and how much i have to offer the world.
before i start down that path, i want to wish all my readers a happy holiday season, regardless of what spiritual path you do or do not follow. all in all, this is a much quieter Christmas than in years past. with the passing of my Mom, last January and the fact we are headed to the tropics tomorrow, i get to do a whole lot of nothing but football, packing for my trip, doing a little bit laundry and maybe, just maybe a trip to the store to see if they have a Kindle cover.
learning to see the similarities, rather than the differences, i start to figure some stuff out. the problem i have been having is the FEAR i feel about being myself. that FEAR, which has always been present in my life, has been quiescent until i started to stir things up with step work. i know that the FEAR is a reaction to a set of buttons that installed decades ago and when activated, activate my desire to run and hide, in the comfort of one of my many personas. as i have been told, taught and experienced, i know to defeat FEAR, i need to own it and walk through it, which is where i am at today. i know that i am just another garden variety addict in recovery, despite all the ways i am unique. i have a program, i have feelings and most importantly i have the desire to be clean today and live a program of active recovery.
before i start down that path, i want to wish all my readers a happy holiday season, regardless of what spiritual path you do or do not follow. all in all, this is a much quieter Christmas than in years past. with the passing of my Mom, last January and the fact we are headed to the tropics tomorrow, i get to do a whole lot of nothing but football, packing for my trip, doing a little bit laundry and maybe, just maybe a trip to the store to see if they have a Kindle cover.
learning to see the similarities, rather than the differences, i start to figure some stuff out. the problem i have been having is the FEAR i feel about being myself. that FEAR, which has always been present in my life, has been quiescent until i started to stir things up with step work. i know that the FEAR is a reaction to a set of buttons that installed decades ago and when activated, activate my desire to run and hide, in the comfort of one of my many personas. as i have been told, taught and experienced, i know to defeat FEAR, i need to own it and walk through it, which is where i am at today. i know that i am just another garden variety addict in recovery, despite all the ways i am unique. i have a program, i have feelings and most importantly i have the desire to be clean today and live a program of active recovery.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
1) When a reconciliation is effected (between two parties) after a
great animosity, there is sure to be a grudge remaining (in the mind
of the one who was wrong). And how can this be beneficial (to the
other)?