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i am seeking freedom from my defects.
well i thought i would write about how i have been acting-out the past couple of days and how i need to make amends, but i have decided that doing so would probably cause more harm, contrary to the nature of the amends process. and trust me there are more than a few huge ones that i am working on and thinking about today.
so what does that leave me to write about? well this step is officially kicking my butt, i really hate the process of becoming entirely ready, with all its implications, i would rather just skip past this step and humbly ask to have them removed. but i would hardly be ready to become willing to make amends to all those i have harmed, so onward i plod towards the conclusion of this process and hopefully i will learn a few things over the next few hours to minimize the damage i am doing.
yes the reading was about the ninth step, and how i need to check in with my sponsor before trying to make amends, just to verify that i am not doing any more harm.
so since what is on my mind is something i choose to keep off the internet, suffice it to say that i am okay today and am working towards becoming the person i was always meant to be.

∞ DT ∞