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Thu, May 23, 2024 09:51:28 AM


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posted: Thu, May 23, 2024 09:51:28 AM

 

principles -- not impulse -- to guide my behavior., may be, as my source reading states, a symptom of maturity. i generally call it adulting, as i want to be seen as anything but mature. i am having difficulty accepting the results of my dental and physical exams, as the past two days have been amongst my worse, for quite some time. they really were not all that bad, it was just reality intruding on my comfortable sense of who i am and as always i do NOT like it. the fact is i am aging and i have been unable to exercise at the intensity that i grew accustomed to, before my injury in October. unfortunately that has not meant that i cut back on how much and what i eat. if i want to return to my fighting weight of 180, i am going to need to make some changes and like many of my peers, i loathe change that smacks of any sort of “giving something up for my own good.”
this morning as i entered the void, for the third day in a row, what i felt was a bit of peace and a bit of wonder why i need to be so worried about how my body happens to be aging, when i do have the ability to stay fit, if i apply the effort. that is of course, the catch. when i was running and hiking without limits, i felt good, even though i was overdoing it and cruising towards the injury that has had me mostly sidelined for the past seven months. when i return to peak form, i may just look at the frequency, distance and exertion and cut back a little bit, as i alter my diet to remove sugars, carbs and red meat. not eliminate as that would drive me into a state of rebellion against privation, but comfortably reduce to more manageable levels. i guess that might be seen as a symptom of maturity as well.
today, i have decided it is my backyard office for me, rather than the trip to the cigar store. the season is upon me and i am grateful that i can use my patio as my home office, now that it has warmed up. i know i have stuff to do and to rail about something that i have the power to change, but choose not to, is certainly a symptom of my immaturity and just for today, i will evaluate which side of the coin, things fall on.

∞ DT ∞

 

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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯

THE TAO TEH KING, OR THE TAO AND ITS CHARACTERISTICS
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge

Book 2

3) The sage has in the world an appearance of indecision, and keeps
his mind in a state of indifference to all. The people all keep their
eyes and ears directed to him, and he deals with them all as his children.