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in a loving HIGHER POWER. no human being could relieve my suffering. i may feel broken but i go on, knowing that my life will be repaired.
and boy do i need this reading today. i have been in motion since five thirty this morning, putting out fires, supervising work, visiting my sponsee in jail and just moving through a chaotic morning and finally get a chance to sit down and ponder the meaning of life, the universe and everything. so after a bit of thought, i come back to the moment of FAITH that i need to move forward with my day. nothing that has been happening over the past few days has been earth-shattering, and in fact a newcomer may wonder why i even consider what is happening tumultuous. the truth is that it is not, and even after some time in recovery i can get overwhelmed by events that have very little to do with staying clean. for me, the big things are the easiest to handle, after all i do have some FAITH that i will be cared for, regardless of what i may feel in the here and now. no it is the petty little things that challenge my FAITH, after all, perhaps my HIGHER POWER does not have the time or energy to deal with the small stuff, and it is up to me to do what i can to resolve the issues in my life. the reading this morning speaks about life shattering events rather than the small stuff, but for me it is the bit about FAITH that is important, not the circumstances that lead to the need for me to renew my FAITH. considering the nature of my belief and the evidence of my life in recovery, i am comfortable letting my will and my life being cared for by something GREATER than me.
so back to the chaos and into the fray.

∞ DT ∞