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...despite the pain i may be in.
the key to that is my growing FAITH in the POWER THAT KEEPS ME CLEAN AND PROVIDES FOR ALL MY NEEDS! part of that FAITH is the idea that no matter what happens, no matter what i feel, no matter how realistic my FEARS may be, my needs will be provided for and i will be taken care of by that POWER. coming from the spiritual state i was in, when i first approached this whole recovery gig, this is quite a stretch and even reading the words as they are typed across my screen still fills me with a sense of disbelief. after all, where is the cold rational person that only came to recovery to learn how to use like a normal person?
but enough of this silliness, the honest truth is that rational person is not quite so cold today and has opened his mind to the possibility that there may be more happening in the world than he can quantify with his five senses and explain with his primate brain. the converse statement may also be true, but it does me no harm to work on the theory that, i am worthy of being cared for by a POWER beyond my limited understanding. it does me no harm to rely on that POWER to provide me the comfort and support i NEED in times of pain and crisis. not that i expect some ethereal hands to reach out and carry me off to some safe haven. it has been my experience that this POWER works through people and what appears to be coincidence. if i need some moral support, one of the people who love will provide that. if i need clarity, i often get my answers by attending a meeting. and if i just need a hug, i know where to get that to!
so my growing FAITH is an extension of how HONEST, OPEN-MINDED, and WILLING i choose to be today and right now i am grateful that i have enough FAITH to get through what ever may happen today!

∞ DT ∞