making a difference
Posted: Wed, Oct 13, 2004 04:41:23 AM
the JFT reading for me this morning was incredible. i have been on an emotional roller coaster for the past 4 days and have forgotten that i can practice kindness. i have forgotten that often the only way i can make a difference is to be kind to those who i happen to encounter during the course of my day, whether that is a sales person in 7-11, the newest newcomer or a friend who has been there for me for quite a while.
of course, the scale of my kindness is only limited by my spiritual fitness at this moment and when i find myself being cruel and mean there is something wrong with my spiritual condition that needs to be addressed by 10th step inventories and conversations with others in recovering addicts.
i know what is going on but cannot see my clear to through the emotional fog. it is true that i have rediscovered passion and i am learning to respond accordingly. unfortunately this knowledge has come a bit late and now i have some messes to clean-up due to responding to passionate feelings. i do have the tools and the desire today to go back and repair those relationships and am proceeding on that course.
i still have a problem recognizing and accepting the opportunities for growth presented to me by GOD, and often want to whine "WHY ME???", well the answer to that plea is why not me! so for today i will step back, let things settle and recognize and respond to opportunities to practice random acts of kindness.
-- DT --
of course, the scale of my kindness is only limited by my spiritual fitness at this moment and when i find myself being cruel and mean there is something wrong with my spiritual condition that needs to be addressed by 10th step inventories and conversations with others in recovering addicts.
i know what is going on but cannot see my clear to through the emotional fog. it is true that i have rediscovered passion and i am learning to respond accordingly. unfortunately this knowledge has come a bit late and now i have some messes to clean-up due to responding to passionate feelings. i do have the tools and the desire today to go back and repair those relationships and am proceeding on that course.
i still have a problem recognizing and accepting the opportunities for growth presented to me by GOD, and often want to whine "WHY ME???", well the answer to that plea is why not me! so for today i will step back, let things settle and recognize and respond to opportunities to practice random acts of kindness.
-- DT --