โ an act of kindness costs me nothing โ
Posted: Wed, Oct 13, 2010 07:52:10 AM
but is priceless to the recipient. well, as stressed as i am this morning, this is an excellent reminder to me, that i can stop, take a breath and add something to this world instead of just take. it certainly has been a weird week, with things going wrong where they never go wrong, and voices that i am used to hearing being eerily quiet. if i was the type to attach an emotional value to the daily reading, i would say;“i really liked this reading.”
since i am not that type, or rather i have moved beyond the need to attach a judgment because the written word evokes an emotion within me, i can quite easily say, that when i read this reading, i felt a sense of joy. here is a reminder of some power i do have, in my mostly state of powerlessness. i can change the world with a single act of kindness in the cliché pay it forward manner. not that i believe it will earth shattering, but i do get that if i perform an act of kindness, even if the recipient is clueless that i have done so, i have made the world that much better. for once, i am contributing to the greater good, instead of adding to the burden of negativity, as i often did in my active addiction. before you get the wrong impression, i do not believe that in active addiction i was some sort of Satan poisoning the entire world with my bile. i do understand, that i polluted enough of my small section of the world with that bile. in fact i did so regularly and with such gusto, most of the people who once associated with me had either been ‘ex-d’ out of my life and had fled, in response to who i had become.
now that i do my best to live a program of active recovery. most of those with whom i share my life with, are grateful that i am part of theirs, most of the time. when i find myself stressed to the max, acting out in a bit of kindness to my peers, my familiars, my intimates or even a total stranger, is a good way to come back to the here and now. it takes a conscious choice on my part to perform an act of kindness, and that conscious choice awakens the good within. when that part of me is snapped back into the her and now, i am back on the path of recovery.. i can male the plans i need to make and let go of the outcome. i can allow a POWER greater than myself to guide me and show me what i need to be shown and i can return to that desirable state of being teachable.
quite the cascade within from that act, not to mention what may happen in the world outside. speaking of the here and now, i need to wrap this up and get ready to run this chilly morning. i do after all, have plans that need to be acted upon, just for today.
since i am not that type, or rather i have moved beyond the need to attach a judgment because the written word evokes an emotion within me, i can quite easily say, that when i read this reading, i felt a sense of joy. here is a reminder of some power i do have, in my mostly state of powerlessness. i can change the world with a single act of kindness in the cliché pay it forward manner. not that i believe it will earth shattering, but i do get that if i perform an act of kindness, even if the recipient is clueless that i have done so, i have made the world that much better. for once, i am contributing to the greater good, instead of adding to the burden of negativity, as i often did in my active addiction. before you get the wrong impression, i do not believe that in active addiction i was some sort of Satan poisoning the entire world with my bile. i do understand, that i polluted enough of my small section of the world with that bile. in fact i did so regularly and with such gusto, most of the people who once associated with me had either been ‘ex-d’ out of my life and had fled, in response to who i had become.
now that i do my best to live a program of active recovery. most of those with whom i share my life with, are grateful that i am part of theirs, most of the time. when i find myself stressed to the max, acting out in a bit of kindness to my peers, my familiars, my intimates or even a total stranger, is a good way to come back to the here and now. it takes a conscious choice on my part to perform an act of kindness, and that conscious choice awakens the good within. when that part of me is snapped back into the her and now, i am back on the path of recovery.. i can male the plans i need to make and let go of the outcome. i can allow a POWER greater than myself to guide me and show me what i need to be shown and i can return to that desirable state of being teachable.
quite the cascade within from that act, not to mention what may happen in the world outside. speaking of the here and now, i need to wrap this up and get ready to run this chilly morning. i do after all, have plans that need to be acted upon, just for today.
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