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Wed, Oct 20, 2004 04:17:59 AM
freedom of choice
posted: Wed, Oct 20, 2004 04:17:59 AM
what a scary concept. although i once believed that i had freedom to choose how and what i did, my actions were dictated solely by what i needed to do to get HIGH.
today this is the very issue that i struggle with. i want someone or something to make my choices for me so i have something to blame when things do not work out the way i like them. blame was one of my defense mechanisms and it still operates under the surface. i chafe under the yoke of authority and yet there i can still derive some comfort from the freedom of making choosing a course of action. i still want someone else to work my steps for me and tell me what is wrong in my life.
thank GOD, that i am not so consumed by the FEAR of freedom of choice that i can choose to recover, make choices and accept the responsibility and consequences fo those choices and NOT HAVE TO USE as a result. i can live with freedom of choice as well as freedom from active addiction today.
-- DT --
today this is the very issue that i struggle with. i want someone or something to make my choices for me so i have something to blame when things do not work out the way i like them. blame was one of my defense mechanisms and it still operates under the surface. i chafe under the yoke of authority and yet there i can still derive some comfort from the freedom of making choosing a course of action. i still want someone else to work my steps for me and tell me what is wrong in my life.
thank GOD, that i am not so consumed by the FEAR of freedom of choice that i can choose to recover, make choices and accept the responsibility and consequences fo those choices and NOT HAVE TO USE as a result. i can live with freedom of choice as well as freedom from active addiction today.
-- DT --
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
2) It is the way of Heaven not to strive, and yet it skilfully overcomes;
not to speak, and yet it is skilful in (obtaining a reply; does not
call, and yet men come to it of themselves. Its demonstrations are
quiet, and yet its plans are skilful and effective. The meshes of
the net of Heaven are large; far apart, but letting nothing escape.