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has always been and probably will always be something that severely chaps my hide. part of the reason i will be voting the way i will, in this very contentious election season is because of what some folks are attempting to shove down my throat, a specifically religious take on HOW all of “us” need to live our lives. their choice is to limit mine and although there are choices i cannot make due to my biology, nevertheless, those for whom choice does matter, should be able to make it, without interference of holier than thou busy bodies. i am sick to death of seriously deluded politicians and their cohorts, telling me what to do. oops, i tripped down a path that i really did not need to go down today. as one can tell, i am a but hot over the actions of some politicians and their see no evil, hear no evil but speak plenty of evil monkeys. what i do not understand is how so many people can fall under the charms of con men and snake oil sales people, as they offer less of everything, other than controlling the lives of those who are different.
this morning, i accidentally on purpose did not set my alarm and as a result have been running behind my usual schedule. in general, this would have created a whole lot of anguish, and internal wailing and gnashing of my teeth. instead, i understand the choice i made, whether or not is was intentional and am extremely calm and assured that nothing is fVcked. every action i have taken, has been a choice this morning, including not rushing through any of my morning activities to “catch-up.” on a morning such as this, i need to treat myself with a bit of kindness and realize that there is a flow to follow and allow myself to swim downstream in that flow, rather than fighting the current. i CHOOSE to recover today and because i consciously made that choice this morning, i can be okay with what that choice entails, which right here and right now, means putting down in bits and bytes what is on my head and my heart, in this slice of twenty-four hours.
as i consider the notion of having freedom to choose, i can see how frightening it once was to me. in fact, there are times, even after having this choice for quite some time, where i am paralyzed in FEAR, when it comes to choosing a path to follow. i get why many people prefer to have their opinions and choices pre-chewed and digested for them, as then they do not have to take responsibility for the consequences, or at least that is the way i operated in the past. id someone else made the choice than when if things go “south” than it is not my fault. i could extend that a bit further, but i think i have made my point. allowing others to choose for me, whether it is my politics or spiritual beliefs, appears to relieve of the burden of accepting the consequences. it is, after all, their fault, because i chose not to choose, which means i still have made a choice.
just for today, i choose recovery and a path to spiritual, physical and emotional wellness. it may not always be the straightest or easiest path to follow, but the consequences of following that choice are more than acceptable to me. so it is time for me to get out and about and do my tour of the neighborhood, to burn off some calories and get my heart pumping in a healthy way, rather than stewing in the simmering anger i feel at this post-modern world.

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