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to stay clean, i must find the capacity to let go of my resentments, and the capacity to forgive. okay first off, i am done with surgery, i am at home and i am doing okay today, just a tiny problem with my waste disposal system that hopefully will be worked out over the course of the next couple of hours. so it is more than ironic that i am thinking about a physical waste disposable system, and the reading reminds me of a spiritual waste disposal system.
resentments, sh!t, pretty much the same thing, they are the leftovers of the living process, and certainly nothing i need to hold on to. while my body adjusts to to life after surgery and on medication, i can do what i need to to get that process rolling, drink water, walk, eat and so on. and the reading tells me the steps i need to take to develop an attitude of forgiveness to process the resentments out of my spiritual life -- steps 8 and 9 every now and again and a daily 10th step inventory.
so i am physically uncomfortable today, i can feel what needs to be expelled and released, i just lack the whatever to get it moving, but i have called and am waiting for advice from a professional, and i am certain that this will pass.
spiritually, i do not feel any resentments today, blocking up my natural state, but i am more than a bit off the spiritual path as i recover from the surgery. i am going to a meeting today, i am getting a bit of work done, and i am going to relax and watch football. i know that this too shall pass, if i allow myself the opportunity to return to normal, at a natural pace and not like some sort of superman.
so anyhow, off to a few minutes of walking around the block to see if that helps.

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