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is sometimes the most difficult skill i have to learn in recovery. i am faced with small inconveniences daily. plan the plan and not the outcome, OOPS wrong reading, well maybe. the minor annoyance i have already had to face, was that my body NEEDED to wake-up and be active an hour and half before i wanted to be. or maybe it my head, nevertheless, i am up earlier that i intended to be, and there are two ways that i can look at this. i can see it as a gift of an extra 90 minutes of time in my most productive part of the day, or i can see it as a curse of an overactive mind that needs to be fixed, railing against how unfair life is, and what a tool i am for getting up so early.
well, right here and now, i choose the former, and will try and use this extra time as productively as possible. in fact i already have more than a few tasks accomplished this morning. so as many of my sponsees ask me, is it possible to look for a brighter take on situations that are inherently abhorrent to me, such as not being able to get my full eight hours of sleep? well i tell them it is not actually a case of a half empty or half full cup, but the way i try and look at it, is that i am grateful that i that cup at all.
anyhow that is my bit of sunshine this early Friday morning, hopefully no one needs an insulin shot after that. but seriously, the fact that i have annoyances is a sign that i am alive and have the chance to recover one more day. yes. u have a ton of stuff i hope to get done today. and yes i have to patiently wait for a few others to be ready to do what they need to do. i could allow myself to get frustrated and all pissy about what is not happening, or i can take a suggestion from the reading, take a deep breath and let the world progress as it will. it is after all my choice today.

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