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Posted: Thu, Jan 2, 2014 08:02:06 AM
the POWER that fuels my recovery, whenever i feel frustrated.
honestly, i almost skipped out of doing this, this morning, i overslept, had a pile of spam to deal with, bills to pay and details to arrange. in fact, everything that was my plan, fell apart at about 5 AM, as i snored right through the time i generally get up and rolling.
so frustrated? why yes i am. angry? who could i be angry at? it just is what it is. as the reading suggests, nothing major has happened yet today. nothing is, as the saying around the rooms goes: fVcked. and no matter how triggering all the images on the news of one of my favorite mind and mood altering substances happens to be, i know i NEED NOT be in line today, to exercise my right as a citizen over 21 in the state of Colorado.
so back to the reading, at least for a few more minutes. as i sit here
and let the day percolate through me, i see that i am okay. in fact i am more than okay. i want to be at work by 8 and that is doable. i do not have to be to work until 9, and that is way doable. it is only a 45 minute round- trip to take care of the details for service tonight. the bills will be paid, my passport will get renewed, and well i will get what i need to do, done at work today. life is not terrible at all. in fact, when all things are considered, my life is pretty damn good, and it is a good day to be clean.
so off i go to the showers and to join the commuter parade to Boulder.
honestly, i almost skipped out of doing this, this morning, i overslept, had a pile of spam to deal with, bills to pay and details to arrange. in fact, everything that was my plan, fell apart at about 5 AM, as i snored right through the time i generally get up and rolling.
so frustrated? why yes i am. angry? who could i be angry at? it just is what it is. as the reading suggests, nothing major has happened yet today. nothing is, as the saying around the rooms goes: fVcked. and no matter how triggering all the images on the news of one of my favorite mind and mood altering substances happens to be, i know i NEED NOT be in line today, to exercise my right as a citizen over 21 in the state of Colorado.
so back to the reading, at least for a few more minutes. as i sit here
and let the day percolate through me, i see that i am okay. in fact i am more than okay. i want to be at work by 8 and that is doable. i do not have to be to work until 9, and that is way doable. it is only a 45 minute round- trip to take care of the details for service tonight. the bills will be paid, my passport will get renewed, and well i will get what i need to do, done at work today. life is not terrible at all. in fact, when all things are considered, my life is pretty damn good, and it is a good day to be clean.
so off i go to the showers and to join the commuter parade to Boulder.
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