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the minor difficulties that can fill my days. as i peek at the issues i have at work, after being gone for the better part of two weeks, i have to come back tot this reading and what i heard as i sat this morning. there are more than a few issues that have popped up during my absence. some i knew about and chose to ignore until i came back, a few that i actually need to look at, that are brand spanking new. now that i am finished whining about that which is out of my control, it is time to take a bit of power back and be okay with where i am today.
over the past six days, i have been sitting with many of the men who call me their sponsor, and getting them to move forward with their recovery process. i, on the other hand, am still contemplating the nature of my power, or lack thereof. the reading this morning, speaks to life in a state of being powerless. of course, i went to the place of where do i have a little bit of power this morning. i certainly have power over my finances, even though i am not doing a stellar job of exercising my power there, at least i can see where i am, and where i NEED to be. work-wise, well i do have some power there, but as i have grown accustomed to having a warm place to sleep, and all the accoutrements of post-modern living, there is not a whole lot of change i will make in that arena. i know what is expected of me, and i know what to expect from them, so all in all, as frustrating as some days may be, i am okay enough with the current situation to be grateful for what i have, namely a well-paying job, that can be frustrating, challenging and rewarding on any given day. what i do DESIRE and what i am going to exercise my power over today, is my job hunt and certainly the nature of what is coming into my inbox. i “applied” for a position the other day and the response i got back was more than a bit strange. i am certain it was for a recruiting house, and more than likely the spammy “educational” opportunities that i just sent into GOOGLE hell. i also have power over my work environment, as it appears that this week for certain, i will be working from the comfort of my own home. as nice as that may be most of the time, after a few days off, i am getting a bit “stir” crazy and i am ready to get back into a working space with the rest of my team. what i am also “hearing” this morning, is that even though my life could be better, i am not living in the hell of living my life by default and avoiding taking responsibilities for what i need to do. i want an Americano, and i will be heading out for one, in a few minutes. i also want 440 million dollars, the coffee beverage is something i CAN and WILL do, the POWERBALL jackpot, is a very big MAYBE. so since my e-mail requesting a meeting invite has not been answered, i guess i will put this little ditty to bed and go see how i can be better than the average Don today, just for today.

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