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...as good or bad, success or failure. i tend to feel happy about the **good** and angry, frustrated, or guilty about the **bad.** pull my hamstring -- bad, run faster than before -- good, finish a project -- good, play a computer game -- bad. yes i could go on and on, but maybe just maybe, tweaking my hamstring is a good thing, as it may be the sign that i am training too hard, after all i am over 50 now, and do not recover like i did when i was 18. or maybe spending an hour or two playing a game is a good thing, as it takes my mind off of my immediate frustration, and allows me to come back to a problem with a new approach.
just like the men i am sponsoring, i too, have to open my mind to the possibility that what i know about the the TRUTH, is a lie. not because the TRUTH changes, but because how i perceive IT does, as i move through my recovery. so yes today’s truth may very well be tomorrow’s lie. what does that have to do with attaching value judgments to the events in my life? the value judgments i make about the events in my life are partially based on my belief system at this moment in time. did i say partially, i need to make that statement stronger ARE totally based on my understanding of the TRUTH at this moment in time. as a human being that understanding is incomplete at best, so by looking at the events in my life as good or bad, no matter how logical my value judgment may be in the here an now, the odds are that it will be wrong. as the reading suggests -- no not that my knowledge of the TRUTH is limited, but a better course of behavior would be to accept the events as they occur as just that events that occur and refrain form consciously or unconsciously placing a value judgment on them. become a true neutral with respect to what happens in my daily life, and as such i would be better prepared to learn from the events in my life. an interesting theory, and quite a goal to aspire to. recovery and step work has taught me, that setting lofty goals is a good thing, working to allow the changes in me to be manifest so i can get closer to that goals is also a good thing, expecting to arrive there someday like a Caribbean cruise is not. so i will go forth into my day with the thought in mind that yes today is a good day to let go of my value judgments about what does and does not happen in my life, and see what where i end up. after all, i do have the means to look at my day in perspactive from the end of it.

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