∞ **be patient when you are learning to meditate,** i was told. ∞
Posted: Sat, Jun 20, 2009 04:12:23 AM
**it takes practice to know what to *listen* for.** okay this whole reading is so ironic this morning, as it has been less than 96 hours since i sat down with my sponsor and went over this very territory. of course the reading is about learning to meditate, and there are some mornings when i am just another member who already does this and that. be that as it may, i feel this morning a certain poignancy from this reading. the lines about claps of thunder and my sponsor asking me what do i *hear*, are just two of the direct quotes that came from our mouths during our discussion the other night. as we spoke about the nature of GOD, Life the UNIVERSE and EVERYTHING, i was struck by the fact, that was the first time we ever had that sort of conversation. i was also struck by how **right** our relationship is and feels like it has always been. then i start to wonder how i ever got into this particular stream in the GRAND FLOW OF THINGS. as i start off on my journey this morning, and no this is not some sort of metaphor, i really am going somewhere in the physical sense, i am filled with an awe about how things worked out to get me here. i will not comment on my view of the divine this morning, as i have a book i have been suggested to read, to allow this view, which has undergone some dramatic shifts of late, to perhaps change once again.
so what i am hearing these days is not something i can concretely say is the WORD OF GOD, rather a feeling that if i allow myself to, i can trust my intuition. i know in my heart of hearts what the correct thing to do in any situation REALLY is, i also know in that part of me that is part of the divine what is the path i should be walking is. the problem, for me, is that those two wonderful things get mixed up in the mundane background chatter of being a human and suffering from addiction, meditation for me, is the white noise filter that helps me FEEL and HEAR what my TRUE will for myself is, hence aligning myself with the will of a HIGHER POWER. although there is much more i could say about this, i am leaving on a jet plane, so time to shower and make progress towards the Outer Banks in North Carolina. HOWEVER if something strikes me as i make the long journey today, ii will jump in and add a bit of an postscript. so until later, enjoy today, i certainly am going to do my best to so.
so what i am hearing these days is not something i can concretely say is the WORD OF GOD, rather a feeling that if i allow myself to, i can trust my intuition. i know in my heart of hearts what the correct thing to do in any situation REALLY is, i also know in that part of me that is part of the divine what is the path i should be walking is. the problem, for me, is that those two wonderful things get mixed up in the mundane background chatter of being a human and suffering from addiction, meditation for me, is the white noise filter that helps me FEEL and HEAR what my TRUE will for myself is, hence aligning myself with the will of a HIGHER POWER. although there is much more i could say about this, i am leaving on a jet plane, so time to shower and make progress towards the Outer Banks in North Carolina. HOWEVER if something strikes me as i make the long journey today, ii will jump in and add a bit of an postscript. so until later, enjoy today, i certainly am going to do my best to so.
∞ DT ∞