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it is the same with surrender and acceptance. i am not a big fan of some of the metaphors that are so liberally laced throughout the daily readings, HOWEVER, this is one of those that i find particularly apt and pertinent for me. one of the ironies i see in this reading, just like i did not know what surrender and acceptance were before walking in the doors, i was similarly confused about love and infatuation. in fact, the first time i read this i probably had an "ah-ha" moment about love and infatuation, or not.
back to the task at hand. i understand that today the relationship between surrender and acceptance. i surrender to the fact that someone is the way they are, and over time i learn to accept that will not change. i surrender to the fact that i cannot successfully use any mind or mood altering substances and that too will not change. the first case, can change and is not some immutable truth written in stone, in fact coming to accept that someone is so set in their ways that they bare unwilling to change, is one of the saddest things i have to deal with in my ongoing recovery. coming to accept that i am an addict, although it took quite a bit of effort on my part, however, is one of the most joyous facts that i have come to accept. from that acceptance, comes simplicity and serenity. everything i do in the realm of personal growth, i do to counter the damage that the part of me i call addiction, did to me in active addiction. all the strange reactions, thoughts and feelings i have, can easily be attributed to the changes wrought to me while i was a practicing addict. if i want to see the world through more "normal" eyes than i need to continue this whole recovery process. allowing myself to surrender and working that surrender into acceptance of what may or may not be. the doorway to that acceptance has to go through the relationship i develop with the POWER that keeps me clean. it is through that relationship i get power over addiction and the desire to live, to thrive and to be transformed into something that is extraordinary. my transformation is the result of the work i do turning surrender into acceptance.
i guess i have reached the end of what was on my mind, and the time has come to go run, after all, if i am up and about, i might as well accomplish what needs to be accomplished today.

∞ DT ∞