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that fuels my recovery and accept ITS continuing care for me.
love and infatuation, surrender and acceptance, an interesting paring, but for me surrender leads to tolerance which leads to finally after i have no other choice acceptance. i am not quite sure what comes between love and infatuation, and this morning, i need not worry about it, after all, this is about the path to acceptance for me.
i have written about how hard it is for me to accept that i am powerless. there are times when i certainly long to be like some of my peers, and accept that they are fVcking powerless over everything and waltz along their merry way into their version of the care of a HIGHER POWER. i accept that i am powerless over addiction, and how other people act, i am powerless over lots of other things as well. what i have trouble with being powerless over things that i can somehow separate from addiction, i think i may be able to control and that is the problem, i THINK!
well it is getting late, perhaps i will have another chance to expand upon this, or not. what i am taking away this morning, is that no matter what,i can accept that the POWER that fuels my recovery, will give me everything i need.

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